I went down to the river,
I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn’t,
So I jumped in and sank.I came up once and hollered!
I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn’t a-been so cold
I might’ve sunk and died.

But it was Cold in that water! It was cold!

I took the elevator
Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.

I stood there and I hollered!
I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn’t a-been so high
I might’ve jumped and died.

But it was High up there! It was high!

So since I’m still here livin’,
I guess I will live on.
I could’ve died for love–
But for livin’ I was born

Though you may hear me holler,
And you may see me cry–
I’ll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.

Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!



Be with me , My love
Wake up my sleeping spirit
Can’t you see ?!
I’m still sleeping softly by your side
Just give me a reason to live for
Say .. ” You are mine and me yours “

Do not worry, I’m still alive
Touch my heart ,
Amidst this ocean of silence,
Don’t you hear ?!
A faraway pulse calling for you ?!
Saying ..
Save me , Save me

And my face ..  My poor face
It needs a warm wide smile
Light it up now with your common jokes
Bring back the rosy petals to my cheeks
And color my lips with pink by a kiss from ur seducing mouth

Help me to open my eyes to see
The beautiful celestial light, The glory of this night,
And the beauty of your quiet face
Give me a hug that I never had
Press your slender fingers into my back
Till they became a part of my body
Let me savor every Press and Release

Then sing me a song in whispers about words
I always wanted to hear, always wanted to feel
Whisper all this things your heart holds deep
Or whistle your familiar serenades
Those, You used to whistle to me and I was fascinated by
May be they would hasten my breaths
And, May be I will choose not to die

So seek not my love , the fear
Shed a smile,
Drop not a tear
I will never stop listening to the voice of our love
I will not leave you,
I will disappear,
In your Arms and I will plunge,
Into your angelic romantic world
For I’m with you
And you with me
Then I will wish to stay entrapped forever with you for all Eternity.


December 4, 2008


I am wearing black on my white skin,

I opened my eyes to see everything dim

I pointed my fingers to see,

Any mirrors in front of me

Any mirrors for finding the real picture of the real me

Asking myself ..


Why I dressed black ?!

Why I’m blind ?!

What sins I did,

To be punished like this and cursed ?!


My arms , my hands are lying idle

My breaths are barely escaping my heavily weighted chest

Lacking In sense I am

For I’m millions of dreams had failed,

Millions of tears had burst


Ohh My Namless fears .. My countless tears

I shed Countless bitter tears that leave burn holes in the ground

And prevented me every night from sleeping safe and sound


Why do I feel as I’m the devil ?

Why I treated as I’m the only sinner ?

A flower was never meant to survive


I lost my petals

I lost my love, My only one

And my father is not here Anymore

He is staying away from me

There ,

In the Cemetery


And I’m standing here all alone on a garden clouded by shadows

Gazing in my hourglass whose sand ran,

And my life suddenly came to a halt.

Listening to unrehearsed song,

From some sad tired gulls.

And tasting the last bitterness of life

For I took all the pain before

And I was ready to take more,

But I run out of time.


I wish that flame whose burnt my heart from the start
had burnt me to Ashes

But I stayed to let the fire consuming me slowly,

Then renewing me again by the sweetest lies,

By the sweetest illusions

To atone for my sins.


Now I finally found that I can neither feel pleasure nor pain

For I became a grave having No visitors

So, Life for me now is a fake addiction I must quit

So I quit


My creator .. My Merciful .. My Allah

Take this failing heart

Take this broken soul

But not before